tomorrow

Less than 12 hours to go. I'm pretty calm, for now.

I don't even know if I want to promote, or would retaining be better. Let me tell you why.

IF I RETAIN,

1. I can go to NP!! FINALLY.
   But, I'll hv to go through the family barrier first.
   
   
2. If I can't get through that, I'll hv to stay in SAJC.
   But, my family will hv to get through me first.
   

IF I PROMOTE,
(it is probably because I'm lucky.)

1. I go to J2 and mug extra hard and ace my As.
   
   
2. I go to J2 and mug extra hard but still screw my As, and go to poly/retake.

IF I ADVANCE,

1. I pass next year and be promoted to J2.
2. I fail and retain halfway next year -.-

SEE THE IRONY HERE?
I really really want to leave JC. But I know that is not what my family wants.
That's why I'm so confused.
Ugh.
TOMORROW.