there are certain things in life, that cannot be understood by word of mouth. whether be it by listening to an account, observing a reenactment, or even analyzing reactions and responses, they will not be able to convey the entire matter in its wholeness. and when these things happen to you, it is forever that you will have a gap in your heart. because there is nobody in the world who will be able to understand you. to sympathize with you, that is possible. to share your pain, that is possible. but to feel your pain, that is not possible. and it will be forever, that you will carry it along with you. it is not a scar, because it cannot be healed by time, by care, by affection. it is not a scar. it is a gap, a hole, an abyss, an emptiness within your heart. and the more it hurts, the wider it becomes. until it eats up all of you. until it eats up all of you.