life's been a mess. i'm in a mess. yeah. it's bad, real bad. but i guess i'm still keeping my chin up. occasional slip-ups here and there.. but i got through them one way or another. running away has been my escape route lately, i've no idea why. i didn't use to be like that. the feeling and exhilaration of leaving all the burden behind, that temptation never fails to strike and bring me away. it's time i took some control of myself, figured.
2008 hasn't proven to be much fun. i don't want PAE to end. ): i'm scared of JC life. i don't want to leave my comfort zone. it's not like me to be afraid to adapt to change, but i guess with so much going on for the past 6 months, i'm beginning to expect different things as before. despite so, meeting up and gatherings with friends lately has been my pillar of support. sadly, i missed the reunion with Gdine and gang that day. ):
anyhow, after last night, i figured that if the COP for SA stays the same, then it's all or one for me, shuhua, and lipeng. THAT'S SAD. i don't want to be in there alone! i'll pray for you all okay!! WE BETTER GET IN THERE TGHR. i don't want to go to NY... okay all the NY people gonna whack me now. but.. i just don't think i suit the NY life.
think i'm going pool later. and. Valentines is tomorrow.... well what can i say?
happy early birthday JING and XIAODONG
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no kick.
爱 是不是 不开口才 珍贵 ?
