this song's been playing in my head since forever.
aching, aching.
i have been doing my homework, reading Harry Potter, catching up on sleep and spending only $2 a day recently. it's part of the Study-Now-Spend-Later scheme. hope it works. but anyhow, trust me on this: $2 a day.. is. the. ultimate savings plan, man. you'd never look at money in the same way again. (nor food, of course.)
temper's been short lately. is it just me, or do certain people seem more irritable these days? makes me really pek chek you know. gets me irritated as well.
and, realised that certain people i know are really.. not what they seem. it's not scary, i should've expected it. human nature, more or less. but thank goodness i have good adaptability.
on the other hand, 've been pretty unstable in some ways. (not physically, of course. HAHA) bit on the mental side, bit on the emotional side. don't take it wrongly - i don't mean that i'm losing my head or that i'm getting all caught up with my feelings - its not that way. i don't really know what's happening to me actually.
it's kinda like. a head versus heart thing.
actually, it's always been. but i guess i never really did face it. so yeah. things got worse. wish i hadn't let it develop till this state. it makes me so. upset. i should've never let it get to me, i always kept it at bay. damn it. now i can't face it and it makes me feel dumb. i should've never. never. never.
whatever. shouldn't let these pointless thoughts dominate my mind.
matthew's msn nick:
matt. {study.} (Away) - 87 days left as of 25 july.
now you know what i mean by the benefits of coming online - you know how much time you're wasting away.
