i was looking at screenshots of msn conversations i had in the past and i realized your pop-up was in every one of them. and your name was in my desktop list for convenience because we talked so much.
lately everything reminds me of someone i used to be close to in the past. it might not necessarily be the same person, but there's this one person which keeps recurring. and i don't like the significance it brings about.
took out my old phone to use and i was surprised. not so pleasantly, i must say. your name was the last number i texted. sadly, i couldn't find the message i replied to. nor the one which i sent.
and while watching television. which i swear, i hardly do, some commercial came about which reminded me of back in those days how i would squeal at it and you would laugh at me. gosh, it's been a while.
there are so many things i would like to say about these memories that keep haunting me from time to time. but i guess i'd save it for another time. or maybe i wouldn't even be able to put it down into words. just maybe, i would want them to stay that way, forever in the back of my head, ready to spring upon me anytime. maybe i don't want them to lose the special meaning they hold, because every single one of them brings back a recollection that only you and i share. maybe i don't want to write it down just so i can feel better. maybe i want to feel this pain. maybe i want to feel something, anything. just maybe.
