sad to say, i didn't go today because of heavy red and its effects, ha. well but yesterday wasn't too bad. i particularly like the last part that Leroy did with us. it made lots of sense.
What kind of life do we want?
so true, so true. he told us to go home and reflect on what we have now. the lives we are leading now.
"look at the furniture in your home, the appliances and everything else. is this what you want, or do you want better?" he said.
and so i did. reached home and took a long, good look around my house.
i asked my mum, "mummy, how much are our monthly expenses? including the house and car and stuff?"
and she told me some amount that i can't remember (haha) but i was awed by it. for the past year or so, i've been telling myself that i need to get through this O'levels, simply because it's cheeken compared to what imma face in the future. also, i need to get through it so that i can have a better life. which is what's true. but it's not how good i perform innit. it's how i make use of it.
the motivation behind me studying is that, i want to get good grades, go to NP and do Mass Comm, or go to JC and then NUS to do Mass Comm all the same. that's my ultimate goal: a degree or diploma in MCS.
but Leroy motivated me further yesterday. Ah, sounds like enlightenment. well anyway, he told us how he aimed for much more; a bungalow, a car and a very beautiful wife. haha. it seems that my targets and goals pale in comparison to his.
that's what makes a difference between a failure and a winner. (;
so i thought about it last night, how i want to live in the future.
i want to live in a nice cosy condominium, that will do for me. i want to have my house furnished in black, red and white, my three favourite colours. i'll make sure i have it done by an interior designer so that i don't screw it up, haha. i want to buy a unit in the next block for my parents, so that they can be kept at arms length yet near. haha.
i want to buy a nice SUV that can drive them and my friends around. i want to get a bike license and buy a bike as well so i can be like some crazy bitch and act like a Minah when i want to.
i want to have a great big shaggy dog called "Cookie" to enhance the irony and i want to feed him with premium dog food everyday. i want to send him for grooming once every three days so that his fur shines.
i want to get a job in a PR firm or the likes. i want to go to work everyday in my SUV, dressed smartly in a pressed suit. i want to sit in my very own office and smile at my subordinates. i want to leave office with a even wider smile and head for a nice good coffee with a friend. i want to have more money then i need so that i can give to those beggars on Orchard Rd on the way.
i want to be happy.
and this, is all i need to be happy.
i'm easily contented if you know me well enough. and for that, i will need to work hard from today. and i will do so until i breathe my last breath where i will nag at my kids. (haha Leroy) and for that, i will start by studying dilligently for my O'levels this holidays.
you should too, cos it feels like we're running out of time. (:
