yep bookbinders here i come. or prints.
before i forget, here it is as promised.
Joakim. (:
like i said sorry for bad hair! zzz.
and i think we sorta have the same dimples in this pic aye~
anyhow. went for training today. wasn't a proper training i guess? only did runs & drills. no game cos it rained. aw how sad. but i love the rain anyway. just as long as it doesn't come all the time :) as the almighty coach was talking about ahem clocking attendance & stuff. it actually sparked off some thinking within me. hmm. don't read if you're not interested :)
i don't understand why i'm still here actually. i have the interest i have the passion i have the drive. but i dont know why everytime, to you; i'm just not cut out for it. like nothing i ever do is up to par, is good enough. i might not have talent, and i might not have the determination but you never ever do, motivate us in any way, you realise? this could go on forever. but what i remember most vividly in these 4 years, is how i was always named Capt or Vice Capt in name only. yeah, i believe i have the juniors' respect. but what about court play? nah. you placed me in B'div comp when i was in C'div. i never played for main 7 in B'div 2nd year. it was a sec1. yah a sec1 who played in main7. now, i'm not playing B'div too. and all these while, i'm the V.capt. its such an irony. i don't know why i still bother about you, about what you think. i'm wasting my time & effort on something that won't be appreciated. do you even remember what you used to tell me? damn. you're such a joke. i'm not getting into details here. you think everyone's so fucking happy with you? think again. since you know what you want that is so the best for the team, go ahead. i'm rooting for our team, the team i
me and my rants.
i feel quite uncomfortable writing this entire para up on my blog, but i decided since she couldn't give two shits about me, i'm not going to care. i like this kind of life :)
in the midst of planning a Barker outing this weekend. really hope all goes well! miss OBS manymany. especially in times like these~
& my mind is in a whirl now. its funny how some people are so fucking fake. yah you. i thought you were a friend. sigh, i thought. but never mind.
and something else has been bothering me of late.. i don't know if it's true and i really really hope its not. but there's nothing that can make it right so i guess i'll just have to let it go.
whole load of thoughts written down on a site no one reads. hawh.
bye loves.
