)':

its okay if you feel that i'm not good enough.
afterall, settling for second best is my forte all these while,
isn't it ?
you know.
you need to reflect on yourself and stop thinking you're always right.
there's no point in me going anymore, i'm not going to sit there all day and fucking listen to your crap when i know it won't do me any good anyway.

maybe you were right, it would be a waste of my time.
cos you make it out to be.




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long story don't ask please kthx.
i need to go on a major shopping spree to vent my anger and unhappiness. it would work better if i could get myself a boyfriend though. what rubbish.

my sister left for New York this morning. i tried to rush home in time to talk to her because i wanted needed to. but when i reached, she already left. and she's only coming back during my OBS. the whole house feels empty now. my brother's in the army, my sis is always flying. my dad's working and its left with me and mum. sometimes we can't even finish a single meal cos we're so used to eating a 5 person meal and now its down to 3.


in times like these my family is all that i want to turn to.


sis i miss you. )':