" 2 a.m. , and the rain is pouring ... "

a cliche line which could lead to many many other outcomes. sigh. i sometimes feel that life is just a rollercoaster ride with ups and downs and nothing else, filled with experiences and lessons for you to learn from. nothing special, everyone goes through it. but is it really true?

perhaps in my pathetic 14 years of life (going 15 in 15days, a reminder to all of you >.<) i have not even reached half of this ride. i am only at the beginning sector of this journey which could end far far away. even so, i am still as negative and pessimistic about the rest of it. i wonder too, that in this ride, who is the person sitting beside me? is she/he one who will scream and breakdown at the high points of this ride, or is she/he one who will be strong and brave it all? i wonder, if i am seated at the front of this rollercoaster ride, where i experience all these first & then help to give strength to those behind, or am i at the rear, where i receive the most help and support to go through these difficult areas. i have yet to figure out most of what lies ahead of me, and i have yet to learn so many other things. i am just a player in this game of thrills where i learn to brave through and come out a better person. it is nothing but an experience of a lifetime, because it really is what your life is about. maybe one day when this ride ends, i'll be on the verge of the world. that's why people say before you die, the most cherished moments of your life will reanact in your brain. that is when i get off the ride & look back at what i have gone through. what i have loved, hated, regretted & learnt. but this ride only goes one for all of us, and it goes fast and strong. Enjoy this ride to your fullest, scream when you're enjoying it & cry when you're afraid. afterall, you know it only happens once. random. stupid things make me brain cells work too much \: especially if its 2am in the morning. i am going to watch soccer later on. woopeedoo england won btw. and i'm going for YOUTHGONEWILD! so happy so happy so happy. thank you darling. it takes so much courage to fall in love, but i missed the chance to prove myself wrong; all over again. sigh. thinking of people leads me on to thinking about many other things. explains the post anyway. i shall end here before i start getting all emo. soccer here i come! :] love to the max {♥}